record

for a record for the whole of my academic life, i was in the sch computer lab on a sunday 11am to monday 1am. wth and i still havnet finish my assigment while some of my classmates are still hibernating in the lab. doing measurement/estimating..

who say sep is slack?


nnbccbtlptkc...



lucky still gt a 10mins breather to chat wif syl. brb to mug land now..

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ons

ons [one night stand]

not that i did it. no 1 i know closely enuff did it. was jus informed by syl that some guy tried to pick her up yest night and ask her to go to a hotel and suggested a ons. she said no with affirmation, naturally im pleased to hear that.

i mean wtf.. seriously wtfffffffff.. i dunno how wld a typical bf feel. but i feel pissed, goddamn pissed. yes, we are getting more liberal but the fact is still a fact, men are dignified and posessive animals. jus like the male pride of a cats kingdom, the lion king would screw(kill) any other male threats who try to fill the females' pussies. same for humans. the tot of guys trying their way, working their plots and tactics to win the way inside the ladies' pants is greatly affecting me. if u feel alcohol is the main culprit to make u do silly things, then dun drink. its own decision to be high/drunk anyway. no excuse.

maybe its only a promise that is holding us back, but my fundamental principle is that when im with person A, i dun fk person B. fu*k (click http://dictionary.reference.com/search?q=fuck) coz i believe the guilt, pain and remorse is too much for humans to continue living. i noe some of my fellla peers have diff opinion as mine, like u can screw all the gers u intended, but jus nt the ger u are going to marry. up to u guys. not me. by fking other gers while still with your partner is jus wrong. fundamentally wrong. to me, the threshold is lips locking, its gameover, if whoever crossed the line.

the even more heart-wretching is that i cant do much to eliminate problem. for according to her is she goes to club becoz of loneliness, which primarily is becoz of my absence from sg. sigh. a big hint for sep enthusiasts, make sure u bring ur gf/bf along for sep, or u r single b4 going, not like waterboi, jus started then go.. lagi jialat. sigh... and i noe she wld prob stop when i go back to sg..im also equally if not more lonely n horny, but i resolved to other means to curb my desires. ;)

from the bottom of my heart, i hope both of us wld still hold on to our promises, keep our pants to ourselves. and be proud we did it for our partners. a moment of folly, a life of regret. at least for me, i dun wan to get myself exposed to such situations, dats y i refrained from clubbing/drinking, only twice since i came US). for how long can i tolerate my partner being wasted, prowled by horny guys, being ungracious, fagging, overly wild i dun noe.

i jus noe im not feeling myself.

but i choose to have faith in me, u and we.

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familar faces

freak.. i retyped this entire post again.. click back accidentally. nb.. anyway.. make it short n sweet. UW had a fair for opportunities to go overseas for exchange program and had a loads of partner universities invited over.. guess wat.. nus is invited as well.. haha.. so... YA. we get to see 2 reps from NUS.. ms ling xiang from the IRO department and prof albert teo from biz, deputy dean of USP.. heh.. anyway we hang out, talked cock abit..ms lx was quite sweet, she brought dried seasoning for hainanese chicken rice for me.

sweet hor.. but too bad.. i gt a full day of lessons, cannt accpomany them to walk walk see see.. so in the end, chewy n liyi (2 sg sep) went to bring them ard.. fast forward..blah blah.. lessons, slept.. boring.. then we met for dinner again, even tho my assignment was due in less than 12hrs, and im onli 10% done then.. anyway it was realli heartwarming to see someone familiar.. great.

heh.. in the end, we chatted, blah blah.. heh.. the prof paid for us and it was a gd get together.. love to see the pple i missed back in sg soon.. muackzz to all, esp to the only person that missed me the most.. ha, i assume its syl.. haha

garlic chicken vege noodles, one of the signature dish at this ZAO noodles bar restaurant.. the prof had this.. anyway he paid for us and told us his salary along the conversation.. (Make a GUESS!!)

brocolli, rice & beef rice.. as usual the sg ger cant finish.. mehaha..

mine, the kungpao chicken, didnt taste too fantastic.. i think aj rice is better, think u guys (ex ajcian) will noe.. sigh..

looks gd, but dun taste as good.. some vege noodles.. think might be abit too tasteless or dry..

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(Ans: Assoc Prof salary is S$11,000 before CPF, after 18yrs in nus)

sigh

wow

red robin

heh, freak finally after this project due. its shitty but i dun care too much abt it, coz i think in the end, the prof is nt going to run thru it. so i will just do wat i can, run thru and submit, no use spending too much time for im quite sure my effort is worth more than a 50% grade.

a few days ago, its my rm-mate's bdae. rem the gay guy i told u.. i was invited to sorta mini celebrations at a fast food restaurant nearby and it named red robins. haha. famous for its burgers.. wonder y.

but the most interesting is that his gay fraternity gang went along.. WOW.. its the 1st time see so many gays under one roof. but, 1 of which is realli quite charming, cute, abit chubby and totally humorous and intelligent. haha.. tho now i sound abit gay.. still, im a straight person and my ass is still virgin ;)

hahah.. heres the pics of the him on pretence of taking the onion rings.. hahaa.. still, the tot of kissing another man's lips eekes me out.. nt to imagine the even more intrusive parts.. bleah..

the famous red robbin burger.. i dun see any red part tho.. another true blue american meal

here the onion rings plus the no1 gay i've seen. it is the 1st few times i've witnessed a charismatic gay.. most of the times i was totally turned off.. ahah

the fella hall mates, ger in pink is super cheeky... hahha.. kept pulling jokes on anthony (my rmmie)

myself and qiuyi, the only sep pple who can make it to his mini party.. guess it was an eye opener for us.. ha.. quite handsome for a guy hor? jus abit too short.. heh.


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hair

eh, 6 mths ago. haha. distinct diff for long hair, mid hair and short hair yow. hahah.. which one do u like? hahaha. vote now.. lucky winners will win a free trip to seattle.

obvious short. haha. look like scottie pippen? heh.

mid length, style plus attitude..

longest thus far. attentive studious face.. abt 6mths ago

so which one do u like?

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piledriver

work is piling, buried under the assignments already. sigh.. hw can a sep student be doing so much work? nnb. so weird. well, hang in there, i missed liang teh where the KRCF or blk comm would brew for the rest of the blk residents to simmer down the stress level.. haha.. *hint hint*

take care dear folks, young and old.

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1000 words

pics say a thousand words. i like photoshop. muahahah..

this macro shot is one of the best i took thus far in seattle. =)

jus for someone special. =)

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pencil

was doing some mugging and blah blah in the reading rm.. did wat i could then starting packing n getting ready to go.. jus when im almost gg, i started doodling... heh.. 1 led to the other.. and i ended up using the pencil and sketching.. and suddenly i feel so familiar, the pencil, the paper, in a quiet rm, staring at a stationary object.. heh.. ya.. i started drawing. well, it sorta refire my passion for art again.. haha.. i was keen on arts abt 10yrs ago.. haha.. feel so rusty anyway.. haha. a gd 15mins of pure utopia. wahahahhua

u guys rem whats this? haha. yes, its my green nalgene bottle. haha. i feel more cultured. haha

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woodland zoo

heh, went to seattle's national zoo today. well, a drizzly and cold day.. when u talked eveywhere gt smoke kind, even when u fart also gt smoke, ha, i think. so went wif the usual bunch of FIUTs (foundation for international understanding thru students aka fwoc for int'l students).. so 3sg with a jappo, 2pairs.

heh. wasnt that spectecular afterall, mandai still the bomb. it was pretty quiet, considering it was a sunday. and alot of closures were upgrading.. so nt a whole lot of interesting animals.. the weirdest was some japanese national animal when my jap friend dun even noe its existence.. maybe too precious that it cannt stay in jap to survive..

its a good retreat nevertheless to vent out studies stress (yes, even in SEP also gt!!) sigh.. more assignments coming up.. but i think i gonna take a gear down.. i keep having this DO AS GOOD AS U KIND mentality.. hmm.. i shd but i think i shd moderate abit till i wldnt feel stressed going to bed everynight nt understanding 100% frm the tutor.

warning, relatively long post full of pics. can see the whole animal kingdom incl mg.

its affliated to Mandai zoo.. show sg nric gt discount.. ahha. i also dunno y its called woodland.. hmm

crazy jappo guy. haha. super loaded but innocent 19yr old guy.

the FIUTS crowd awaiting to go in, abt 30 or so.. mostly japs n koreans

jus like the quaking ducks

heh, the answer... F-king stupid...

the female orang utang getting the royal treament with the blanket..

haha, the male orang utan (aka vdr) gets the king treatment with a tree bed.. he even has a toothpick in his mouth! haha.

one of the zoo's staff talking all abt fowls.. some eagle. pooor ger, no 1 listening to her.. ha..

piranha.. i cant rem if we can get this in sg.. so i took as it anyway

i dunno wth is this plant, but its found in the 'tropical' section.. color combi looks gd tho.. maybe nove can shed some light on this species of plants?

dwarf ponies.. super cute.. think they are tired and cold..

superb macro shot of a rose garden beside the zoo..

some green bugs eating banana..

under the yellow leaves tree.. found yellow trees very interesting. .the sg gang

me and crazy jap. heh


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omfg

decent guy, southpark, asian version.

i was doing my daily stincts, like showering, brushing my teeth etc.. haha. todae was no different. took off my top, bottoms, inners .. blah blah.. and off i started washing myself .. and .. i though i heard a faint woman's voice.. hmm.. 1 more time.. hmm.. i shrugged it off again.. then i heard soft moaning.. fked.. im stunned.. i drew the bathing curtains and scanned ard.. no 1 in sight.. wtf.. i continued..

then.. still the moaning n whispering AGAIN.. hmm.. i peeked down.. (note: the cubicle is unlike sg kind, its where 6 cubicles cluster together together, like a mens' 6pack, with shower curtains as doors and common drainage, so u can see abt shin ht down of ur neighbour'g guy showering..

SO.. i peeked down to check the irregularities.. and i SAW 2 pairs of legs in one cubicle, 1 hairy and 1 not. hahaa .. omfg.. a couple is showering in a men's toilet at 11.45pm on a saturday night. i figured out they are making out, wanna take some pics.. but realised its far too dangerous & mischevious. =P

wah. im stunned. totally stunned.

this is a liberal land. i dun belong here.

me nice innocent guy ^_^

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Grade A

heh, its the turn for singaporean to cook and my, haha. we score a rating out of avg B+.. haha. according to the stringent keibun (jap guy).. its our rare chances to actually cook in our lifetime, besides in blk suppers and probably maggi mee.. haha.. this time, we come up wif a whopping 4 dishes for 5 pple.. incredible.. the most assuring part is that everyone, mostly asians enjoyed the meal and commented 'This is the best asian meal we had so far since we came to seattle!' sob, tears form in my eyes, ok la, abit animated.. but u get the idea. =)

thats so magical. i mean, yes we stink after the cooking, and gt to wash up blah blah.. but the fact is that everyone enjoyed the process and we had so much fun and laughter. so, 1 of my resolution is to master cooking when im bac home. here are some of the visual delights for u guys. check out the color combi. haha..

the menu for the night:

starters: fresh vege
dish 1: Chicken dice with mushrm, topping with samba sauce
dish 2: authentic old grandma bah kut teh
dish 3. omelette with onions, hams & mushrms
dish 4. warm pancakes with maple syrup

and the results: *drum roll*

starters: non-examinable
dish 1: Grade B+
dish 2: Grade A
dish 3. Grade B
dish 4. Grade B+

So overall CAP: 4.13 (Yay! 2nd upper)

master chef with his debut cooking, chicken dices with sambal

check out the royal spread. haha. 2 of us (sg) prepared this, tks to chewy too, shes a great help =)

the mouth-watering spicy aromatic bah kut teh in seattle

the orgasmic chicken dices with sambal, its skinless, requested by co-chef..

healthy looking salad, the tomatoes here are sweet, unlike sg

check out the beatiful tan of orange for this omellete, this is the 1st time i did such a perfect color.. ahaha . sluurrpp...

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gay

conversation with neh. haha. always feel hes a special friend. haha, nt gay partners wise, but connectivity wise. haha. jus to dedicate this post to my guy friends, I LOVE U GUYS too.. iloveyou doesnt pertain to only female counterparts, haha.. goes to ben, ken, vdr, huan, jin, chin, vince, charlie, yz, ron, wilz, yanick, alvin, ty, yq n loads more.. haha..

the history clip with neh. heh.. am i becomming a gay? haha, nah. i live ()() too much. ha

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pocket pc

seh, im darn gian to get a pocket pc, more so when US biggest computer manufacturer is jus here. they have great deals, often up to 20% off.. arrgghh.. temptation. here are the specs, for those who are super pda savvy, leave ur comments if this is a gd deal. this for USD370 plus tax

http://asia.cnet.com/reviews/handhelds/0,39001708,39095661p,00.htm

*freak Sold out after 8hrs*

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brawl

had a funny and frustrating msn conversation with syl yest. it was with such mixed feelings and in the end i logged off in a huff, to minimise frustration later on. however, while i was trying to force myself to sleep, i realised the table kept vibrating (its hp, not vibrator, tsk) and after much effort, i managed to retrieve those msgs. its wasnt the sweetest msg on earth, but it wasnt the meanest too. the ending msg was..


[syl: i may be irritated angry n unreasonable writing the above messages i still
love you so i am telling U Else I won't even bother]


its a frown smile situation. dun noe which meaning to take. ha, i chose the logical way. in all, i think the weather, assignments, food, exchange rates, nostalgic, sickness and misc has taken its toll. ya, i realised, when u r realli concerned abt someone, even the shortest msg meant a world to u. but similiarly, even the slightest vulgarities meant the hell too.

i resolute not to using harmful words to my loved ones. partly becoz my grammer is limited as well. ha, but im working to become a cultured person. one who appreciates fine arts and photographing (of syl, clothed, tsk tsk.. ) .. i love u!

okie, back to reality. assignment here i come. z z zzzzz ...

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oh where oh where

saw this on my msn list and share with you guys. its great to receive things from loved ones. ha. lets wait. heh.. skipped one of my class today, wasnt feeling too good plus that module is only 1mod credit. so, no harm. its getting cold todae, freaking lowest temp was 8deg cel today. buurrr... nice to have some1 tugged together to sleep, hah, nt my gay rommie tho. pls do click for bigger picture.

from my baby. heh.. words do matter of coz. haha

check those out, so envious of them. sigh. haha.. share the cookies leh.. =P

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write something

after 1 ardous month in US, i finally realised one way of american learning. that is for any assignment: Hand in and you are right, fail to hand in, you are doom.

yes, its as simple as dat, jus make sure by the end of the time, follow the instructions clearly, hand in your assignment by the stipulated time and even tho its nonsense, you are still get a decent credit for it, no right or wrong answer. wonderful, look how singapore cirriculum system groomed us. ha, i didnt want to fill in my answer sheet becoz i dun want to disgrace my teacher by writing nonsensical stuff there, but i realised this is the way to go in US.

so rem, write something and hand in before the stipulated time and you'll be safe. 1st test tmlo. i willl conform to my newly found principle.

jus some updates, all the leaves all wiltered already.. the roads are covered with brown dead leaves. the weather this morning was a chilling 11 deg cel. i missed sg food again. laksa, bah kut teh and mee pok. i missed my neighbours. i missed winning 11. i missed sleeping naked. i mssed handball. i missed being missed.

ang mohs are lazy

seriously

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magnanimous

wish those hands were yours? haha..

wish those shoulders were yours? haha

denim is the color to go then, back in 1990s

the cover poster for this show.

abt close to 10years ago, i remember watching 百分百感觉, feel 100% by ekin and gigi leung. it was the biggest show then, wif teens like me going gaga at gigi's long legs, sammi's procelain's face and ekin's flowy hair. haha.. anyway, till this date i still rem the famous quote from the show, its from one of the sidecast, ta ming yi pai, if you guys can still remember. haha.. it closely ties with the title of this post. i still rem it to heart.

it goes:

i forgive, i forget.

to infinity.

it works, at least for me.

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courage

before, looking like a well learned scholar from sg/prc. ha. before US

after. takes mammoth courage to cut down to length like this. well. afterall, its save $ too, it cost USD14 for a haircut here at the barber.

we witness some of the most amazing feats when the worst disasters stike mankind. like the asian tsunami, endless encounters of survivors risking their lives to save others. the asian quake in iran, pakistan, the new orleans hurricane and the most recent bird flu that hit europe. all those sacrifice begin with the word courage. its difficult to define this word in precision, for it encompasses too many actions and thoughts together.

personally, i feel the most courageous a thing for a person to do is to admit his/her mistakes, to say im sorry, truthfully. nothing could lighten the harm that was already made but the genuine effort and remorse could be felt and appreciated. these together with time could well be the saviour and solution to a problem. i mus say time would heal a broken heart, but nothing can lessen the feelings for one. to err is human, but thats no excuse for people constantly making the SAME kind of mistakes. the most crucial fact of life is that there are not much chances around. live it, endure it, cherish it. for when it past, its realli gone. no more reverse, no more ifs, no more i wish.

i mus say its a tough phase now. but, after reconciliation, i might jus figure whats the best for me in the end. i need the extra courage now to accept facts, to live with life. to live like the past. to cherish my loved ones.

its so near yet so far. so real yet so abstract. i still wan more colorful pictures painted on this pg of my life.


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career

Your Career Type: Enterprising

You are engertic, ambitious, and sociable.Your talents lie in politics, leading people, and selling things or ideas. You would make an excellent: Auctioneer - Bank President - Camp DirectorCity Manager - Judge - LawyerRecreation Leader - Real Estate Agent - Sales PersonSchool Principal - Travel Agent - TV Newscaster The worst career options for your are investigative careers, like mathematician or architect.

What's" Your Ideal Career?

white lies

i jus read an article days ago and it was abt 'lying your life' through. it basically touches on the essence of lying and how it can wriggle your way thru difficult situations.. so its great, its godly and thus pple named it white (purity) lies. haha.

it was true as they cited some examples where some employees in the company gt to lie to his supervisor on why they are late for work, all reasons or excuses come up, such as bus broke down, train timing screwed etc etc. i mean afterall, u dun get your pay deducted, u are still employed. wats the harm rite?

another case was a very typical situation similiar to singapore. meeting friend for some sports games. he was late for a typical sunday for a game of baseball. but he overslept and the perfect reason he came up was his mum was sick.. gt to take care of her blah blah blah.. still he can join the game afterwards, true friends watever.. people still offer him medical tips and rides to the doc. filial piety is the best platform for lying, dont u agree? haha. esp when im young, those chalets, my mum always forbid me to go to these outings and always asked me to use these reasons.. "MY MOTHER SAY CANNOT.."

the last case i remember clearly. it was a typical bgr. pair of couple of reasonable dating years.. comfortable and in love with one another. but there were occassions where they were allowed to 'roam' in parties, clubs etc.. so the ger was attractive and was always caught in uninvited attentions. men/boys would be approaching them for a drink.. then for some dance etc.. more often it involves abit of frolicking, tongue changing, butt squeezing and waist clenching.. so at the end of the day, the ger would just discard watever happens and jus lie to her bf abt hw simple the night went. boy ger happy, gd sex, gd relationship. at times i wonder wld bf be happier to kept in the dark or fully aware of the process..

it boils down to personal ideals and integrity. this article is so so similiar
to my life. ha. i mean not exactly now, but the bits and pieces of my life. i
realised i've somehow matured over these ordeals.. i've learnt to respect my
friends, my parents and of coz my gf. thinking back, its seriously hard to
believe how bold and impulsive i could be. of coz, im blessed with the chance to
erase those stained marks. but, im jus wondering if i shd also give chance
to pple who were once in my position, to finally appreciate the truth value of
trustworthiness. appreciate those who truly loved them. move on with life.

if so, how many chances shd one tolerate?

what does it mean by tolerance?

by who's standard do u judge tolerance, the victim?

so at the end of the day, just be truthful & honest. trust is never given, its earned.


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encryption

anyone wanna some puzzles to unsolve. haha. anyone can guess the true meaning would get a t3 tungsten. haha

have fun


10/15/2005 2:36:55 PM xxx: i tagged as cryptofiend: decrypt i will not but pyschoanalyse i will; a greener pasture u seek, tulips basked in sun's shower.

10/15/2005 2:37:23 PM me: ur ang moh too power sia

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scam

i must say its a lousy scam. even tho mg is rejoicing how many snrs were being conned, but to me, its playing with fire.

bad bad fire.

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respect

times have changed. it came to me as appaling, there is clear distinction between joking and showing respect. clearly, you havent seen it.

To:
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From:
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Date:
Fri, 14 Oct 2005 20:59:56 +0800 (CST)
Subject:
RE: [xxx] Interblk relations (SET)

what the freak is wrong with you all? have you all
lost your minds?!
i never expected supposedly matured young adults to
stoop to this level of childish rivalry - to let
inter-block relations deteriorate over a GIRL!
i don't want to live with a block full of mobsters who
only know how to use their fists and resort to
fiendish (and extremely ridiculous - stringing
slippers???)means to resolve quarrels.
i don't want to live in a hall where the blockheads
can be so irresponsible as to ignore a scuffle, where
jcrc members are allowed to throw their weight around
over such petty affairs.
i'm utterly disgusted and disappointed that you people
are capable of behaving in such a barbaric manner.

birthday

heh, after a wk of inactivity due to the flu bug, finally im better off le. so all of us, all international students decide to celebrate one of the thai boy's birthday. ha, we call them boys because they are like newly turned 19.. oh gawd and im already 23.. dot dot dot.. third-life crisis leh.. haha.. anyway, we decide to go to this restaurant call the 'thai-ger' restaurant, haha, nope, nt a strip club.. jus a purely eating outlet. was quite enjoyable n fun. but, i was still feeling abit queasy, probably from the hectic wk dat jus past and the even more demanding wk ahead.. weekends are a gem now. time for me to catch my sleep and of coz to take a breather to talk wif loved ones.

coincidentally, 4 out of 8 of us all gt hit by some virus or smthing, bulk of us are feeling unwell. maybe its the transition of weather, the avg temp is ard 12-14deg cel. pretty comfortable.. bet i will be cursing and swearing when i come bac sg, haha.. 30deg cel and 12.. almost 20deg cel diff.. seh.. come to think abt it, i've almost to the a half of my sep journey.. seriously, time flies, jus when i think im starting to accustomized to this, i might have to leave this place again. jus gt news that cheryln would be coming over to this place for SEP, exactly same place..haha. i spent some time telling her stuff dat even the nus iro officer wldnt noe. =) actually it would be gd if she can come before i leave for sg, but i think shes coming a day after i leave seattle. dats abit too bad coz at least if dat happens, i can surely handover some essential items to her.

heh, shall see hw it goes as time goes on.

my hair is getting long, freaking look like a pro prc now.. nb.. and i feel super unfit now. seh.

bleah..

the group of international students who are always hanging out together, ha, L to R: Liyi-sg, sherry-taiwan, qiuyi-sg, minch-tw, jiro-thai, yow-prc, keibun-jpn, tim-tw, miren-spain.. sweet ya?

birthday boy and cake, anyway the cake was terrible.. bleah.. nowhere near sg standards..
birthday boy at 19 yrs of age. haha, we bluff him that its a traditional to sing the birthday song wif cream on top of his nose. and he actually believed.. ahhaha .. 19... dats y.. cute/gullible?

jus before the food was here. pretty small restaurant, we are actually blocking the whole walkway. haha..

this is the feminine side of me, washing the dishes last wkend at keibun's apartment where we had the 1st taste of authentic jap curry by keibun himself. haha.. quite yummy!!

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