bending

yay, im bending my knees alreayd, tho not alot but its progressing well. ha. yay, dnd is starting to take its flight soon. alot of issues are ironing out now. gonna do my part.

not much stuff to blog abt, nt todae, worn out by meetings and planning.

i love challenges. thank u for not disappointing me

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god

kumar's nick. eblk sexgod

click to see the nick, how true.

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footsteps

been reading the newspaper diligently daily for the past 3weeks. noticed a trend, there are dozens of advertisements on self empowering and investment management, and the speakers are all big time (self proclaimed?) leaders in their fields. im nt sure, but im sure its a gd form of revenue to conduct a bloody seminar, cost $100 per head??!?! .. ahha. one function rm in a hotel can easily fit in 400 - 600 heads.. easily few k for a workshop

all these led to the same old thing abt money and more evidently, my future. how to have passive income. a friend from x financial co came down to intro to me the this career opportunity, probably as a student associate. i will give it some tots, nt sure im ready to commit this much at this moment.

2 members had alreayd indicated to they are not stayin in hall any longer, despite having responsibilites already attached to their portfolios. i cant blame anyone, prob myself for not able to choose the team myself, and probably themselves for being unselfish to wat their hearts desire. i rem its not like this 3 yrs ago, pple wld finish wat they started, of coz there were blacksheeps ard then.. cant help but do feel abit disappointed. nevertheless, the world keeps spinning, it wld be still a blast event.

came this far as a hostelite, few steps i shd have took when i was a greenhorn. to join dance, krx, CMU, infotech, hall pdt tech crew, tennis, softball, cheerleading and jcrc. no more time for regrets. it so easy to judge a person, often forgetting the intermediate process and hardship.

life is not about ourselves sometimes, its a combination of responsibilities, passion, friends and challenges.

and its freaking nt easy to walk alone.

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freakyland

was blogsurfing till i see this pic, looks like all the disneyland adverts are working. ;) haha..

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10k

have you ever consider if you have 10k, what would you be doing abt it.

well, heres a chance. start brooding over it now. looking at things now, and the amt of responsibilities and expenses you wld be expecting a yr from now, wat do u think its wise for u to do to maximise this potential.

food for thought. ;)

some suggestions from friends
1. 1k on world cup, 3k on travel, rest save up
2. all on world cup
3. invest on a start-up biz
4. fixed deposit
5. posb / dbs savings account
6. downpayment for a car
7. look for vince ;)
8. donate to blk fund
9. donate to dnd
10. spend on new gadgets
11. save up for grad trip next yr to maritius, japan, germany
... more of them coming..


the best suggestion would win a trip to germany world cup finals, ya right ;)

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donate

click enlarge and see the brilliance

pledge allegiance to donation of organs.

have you?

wonderful job by cKc.. ;)

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omg

cldnt believe my eyes. wow. it sure takes alot of courage to do this. i muz say she LOOKS hot.

thank god for all the beauty genes ard.

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how would you react if you see ur sis on the cover of fhm next mth? ;)

LOST

i watched LOST like theres no ending, watched 40 episodes in 3 days. no wonder i've a splitting headache 2 days ago.. totally killed my day. but, LOST is a entertaining drama serial to catch. its well worth the headache.

anyway, i have been having breakfast with my mum almost every other day, led to some really interesting and mind-boggling conversation, some reality checks, on the issue of $.

as a future breadwinner and man of household, these would be expected out of me:

grad trip: apprx S$3k
working expenses (clothes + transport): apprx 1k
marriage banquent: 21k
honeymoon: 8k
car/apartment? : 15k?
post grad studies: 20k
future medical bills (myself & parents): infinity

seems like i've great responsibilities awaiting me, i need a gd 100k or .1million before i can settle down. wah. thats a large amt. i barely have 5k in my bank acct. hmm.. its time to think abt what i can, i want to achieve already. i can punt with my 5k, hopefully to get a 2000% return. or work relentlessly for gd 5yrs to get a decent amt of savings. or find a loaded partner who doesnt mind sharing her inheritance with me. or ignore the responsibilities, live a carefree and solidatory life. nah, i need challenges, im actually looking at the advertisements in ST these few days, "Welcome to the world of the Middle-East, Dubai... " i think i might end up working overseas, fending for myself, earning some quick bucks and acquiring wealth of experience. haa

abit lost in what i am capable of and what i wanna be in the future. but i know my life is going to be darn exciting, even more exciting than the NAVY commericial.

haha.

dubai doesnt allow pork. pay in USD. polygamy?

wahah.

touring ard the globe:
king left for korea
shuying & sser are in korea
jiada & friends came bac frm hk
celia left for europe
eblk left for bintan
rj came back frm aus
ling jioing to go thai
beh asking me to go uk
tim waiting for me in taiwan

my my, dear knee, get well soon.

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大长今

the whole world is crazy over this show then, prob less steph and celia coz they dun understand chinese. waahahahaha.. stay home for few days already and realised that home is still the best place of family love and warmth, no doubt, at least for me. the title is more relevant for the later part of the entry tho.

before going on, a big big thank you to those who sms (esp ron), esp ling from shanghai, jiawen, admern, eblkers, yunwen, syl, marists, etc etc and more importantly those who came down to visit me, so touched!

special mentions:

janice: even after the hball trg in the morning, she still came down with her shaved legs and bright eyes. thank you!

dinah: one of my most adored yr1, thanks! your chirpy voice and smile brightened me and i am sure we wld be back at b-blk goal post for some gd hball shooting soon.

alvin ljs: ahha. remarkable, tks for coming. i will make sure i learn some dancing movees frm you next semester at eblk. its a blessing that u r in 6th fl.

adele & wilson: 2 lovebirds. tks for the poster, yes, i will perservere! tks for those words of encouragement!

kingman: haha. tks, your sweet smelling perfume and $260 new curls did ease my pain a little.. haha, tks for coming all the way down from yishun. tks, i will treat u a nice dinner for ur bdae!

here are some pics to update what has been happening for the past 7days.

huan has been cooking again! haha.. i guessed his culinary skills has improved, u guys noe why, it all started with BLK supper, yes, eblk, kr blk supper, so the bottomline is that if u guys make effort to learn this new skill, soon u can be a master too.

yup, dnd comm is working, no doubt, i may be immobile for a while. stay tuned. here are some visual updates.

somehow i feel happier. happy that im at home. happy i have genuine friends. happy we didnt work out. happy i can walk. happy i can watch LOST1. happy with life.

one of the potential venue for dnd 0607, still under consideration

another one, this one's cool becoz of the reception area and the great backdrop and finishing

the impressive default staging at keppel club. save alot of logistic issues to get the stage ready for us

pre-op dinner with my marists & ajc buddies. me and shan, one of my best buds since jc. haha, shes cool, and single, anyone keen? haha

marists bros.

dish01: some white fish with bacon, sprinkled with lemon sauce. taste 7.5/10

dish02: tomato stuffed with bacon, celery, miscellaneous taste: 8/10.. it looked scary but it tasted otherwise. haha. gd job

dish03: dunno wat la, some italian dish la, super loaded with cheese. taste: 6/10 abit too cheesy for me

dish04: kong bah meat with vege plus some sauce. taste 7.5/10. abit too fatty. maybe it will taste like the bomb overnite when all the essence seap in. gd job nevertheless!

i am so freaking strong. i will show pics of my stiches in the next entry, at least 10 stiches or so, but i dun feel a thing.

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outing at ttsh

now im back in the comfort of my home. some afterthoughts in the short stay over in ttsh

i was given GA (general anaesthetic) for the whole surgery, meaning i would become unconscious of things going on to lessen my pain and agony etc. the anaesthetician was happily chatting with me and told me that he need to numb my left thigh, then 'zzzaaap' he torn away the disposable underwear i was wearing.. haha.. then shortly after that, i realised my left thigh is completely numb.

heh, the doc kept asking me weird qns, then after that, they had a mask over my face, they say its oxygen. bulltshit, less than 30secs later, i was talking to dr zhou, god of sleep. totally concussed. god knows how long i slept. i vaguely rem the time i was pushed in to the operating threate, it was abt 10.30am or so, by the time i woke up, i was in the day ward, abt 2.30pm.. i was super seh. cldnt think straight. left leg totally numbed and heavy.

nurse grace came attending to me, i always tot nurses are anal pple who like to bully poor helpless patients, god i was wrong, she's so kind, like mother teresa, taking care of me like a baby. she started assuring me and asking me if im fine. wonderful wonderful service. think they inform pa ma, ya, so they came visiting soon after.

fast forward to 11pm. i watched some channel 5 show on tv, the drowsiness effect set in, was half asleep then. at that time, another nurse came in, i cldnt catch her name, but frm her accent, i think shes some philipino. wow, another passionate nurse. i think she came attending to every hr or so, taking my blood pressure and changing the ice pack. excellent service once again. and she is ever so kind and patient. hmm. at that point, i had total respect for pple working in the medical fields, esp with nurses and doc, the power of touch and care. maybe i shd become a care-giver one day.

from 12mn - 5am, it was full of activties, mine was suppse to be 6-bed ward. but at the time when i fell asleep, i had only 2 more neighbours, but throughtout the night, another 3 more beds were pushed in. some really interesting ones. i recalled the one beside me was a big big burly indian, who snored so loudly that even the phil nurse came in to apologize on his behalf. haha. the interesting fact abt his hospitalisation was that: He had a fight with his wife, having a quarrel and fight. haha.. and he smashed the mirror with his bare knuckles/arms. wow. haha. he slept like a baby, a super loud one tho.

i think i would treasure my limbs from now on, also my friends who are ard me. sometimes a person's misfortune would allow a true dicpiction of a person's standing to u. thank you to those who genuinely care.

i have 4 punctures at my left knee now, hard to take a gd picture of how it looks. maybe on sat after my wound changing. as of now, my thighs are bloated, prob too tight becz of the stiching. my calfs are slightly deformed, some parts enlarged while some parts shrunk. i am starting on the home based physio now, wanna get back to healthy being again. physio at ttsh will start in 2wks time. i can limp, even without crutches, but still left leg has really limited strength and flexibility.

i will be back!

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back

im back from ttsh, it wasnt as scary as i thought. i can limp.

i am going to fight to get my knee back to the old shape. tks for those who are concerned. totally apppreciate it.

going to think of things to accomplish coming 1 mth inactivity.

love u guys

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d-day

exams ended. but also meant more stuff coming up.

here i am, in my eblk room for the final time of the sem. packing my stuff, ready to move on, literally.

tmlo would be a major milestone of my life, it pretty much dictates how am i going to spend my sporting life, yes, tmlo after the operation, i would no longer fall under the 'normal' cateogory of humans le, i would be abnormal. As shanice blantly put it, "we are the abnormals ones after the operation, no longer functioning as normal beings."

quite alot of issues surfaced and ironed out during these couple of days. jus only yest, when i was giving mud the gift, i checked the msg that was send some time ago abt the location of the place, coincentally, the date was 05/03/06, and my final paper was 05/05/06. so essentially i had a crashed course within 2mths. so much happened within 2 mths. i felt blank.

some part of me felt thank god, the wait is finally over, the other part of me felt i was the culprit who squander away a chance. nevertheless the verdict has been reached, no more recourse or any form of rebuttal. its a clash of interpretation of fundamentals, the idea of trust, faith and expression. i am thankful for being brought back to reality, not in the comfort zone any longer. i am definitely disappointed and sad, this time i will agree time will tell (heal). i am not angry over the whole wait, i shdnt be, the feeling of loss is more apparent.

along the way, my healtfelt thanks goes to those who lent a listening ear. u guys meant alot of me. i just shook a final farewell handshake to charlie (8/5/06, 1054am), i hate the feeling of bidding farewell. take care my dear friend.

after the showdown talk, i asked myself again abt the whole issue, hmmm, i've reached a verdict myself.
time will tell. all the best.

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marvel

couldnt resist and less cared abt the copyright laws. these pics are incredible. tks nove for capturing these wonderful moments in kr in 03/04 (pls dun sue me! these pics are really awesome)

so sad when such a talent is not fully appreciated

all of them can be set as wallpaper.

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quote of the wk

for those who dun know, this design came out from steph tan ruiqi, edited by ed. ha. gd job ger!

best words i heard from a yr 1 eguana who's leaving hall

last words:
wont miss dinner... Will miss the dinner talk.
wont miss IBG early morning trainings... Will miss IBG fun and friendship.
wont miss IHG trainings... Will miss IHG comaraderie.
wont miss hall... Will miss eguanas.

thank you wei aun. your words definitely touched the hearts of fella eguanas.

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LPS

LPS = last paper syndrome.. nt vulgarities like lan pa s.. . watever.

ya, my 2nd last paper was on last sat, then the final paper on the 5th. a good 6 days to mug for the paper. too long, way too long. even tho i havent really study in depth yet.

over this exams i realised

1. 4 out of 5 modules for me are open book, further realised that my core modules for next yr are ALL open book too. gd and bad. gd is no memory work, bad is really thorough understanding & application.

2. red wine does to a certain extend boost memory capacity. ha, tried and tested. but muz be only in minute dosage, anyting more than a nutella glass is too potent already.

3. exam tips are very crucial. the 'tips' sesssion conducted by every lecturer is actually very informative. they contain loads of information regarding the final examinations qns. so form a study grp, analyze the qns, tips given, rather than solving some past yr qns together, unless the tips indicated that such things are coming out

4. i can have uninterrupted sleep on the eve of examinations. since yr1, i was having problems trying to snooze like a baby the night before exams, usually the brain is full of activities, like the formulas, the application etc. but for the past few papers i had this sem, i had been experiencing gd sleeping hrs. and naturally less stressed over the whole idea of exams. maybe the seattle air taught me hw to relax.

5. even during exams and experiencing exams stress u can still care and concern for people who meant smthing to u. heh, i think im a giver rather than a receiver. i wonder how those pple who received felt? and emotions still run full force even when exams are rd the corner, u can temp push them behind your mind, but u CANT stop thinking abt them. ya, i was thinking abt mud fighting chinaman. ha

6. i feel less horny during/after mugging. the stacks of notes and readings seems to hold your hormones in check and put them in hynoptize mode when you finish revision.

7. i play more we11 games than any other period combined. i shd change game soon, i have been playing since yr1, the pc version tho.

8. i visited gym/pool more than all the other sems combined. maybe it jus a personal achievement to lose wt after gaining at usa. ha, it doesnt hurt to look healthy anyway. and i 'loan' the membership card for guild hse, it proved to be an incentive as well.

9. i tend to imply far more issues that u ever imagine. save the details. =S

10. i tend to spend alot of $ - on luxury items like the 19" LCD monitor, PDA, clothes and accessories.

4 more days to a decent outing

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