grey

wat a hectic sem, wk5 already. ihg's ending, sem break coming, hall pro next wk, cny next wk, yep coming, im graduating. wow. seriously im entering the next phase of my life already and im already feeling the pressure.

i found the feeling of wanting to know someone better, its a feeling that was missing since mud. i guess it really takes alot of fate, time and space to nurture something. and of coz, it has to be 2way, 1way traffic is never going far. i met up with mud over the wkend, my, shes still the bomb, just a size bigger, but the mindset and wavelength is synonymous with mine. i enjoy the maturity, i like that kind of companionship. on the other way, viet is bubbly, innocently shrewd and attractive. its that kind of childlike that drawn pple to her, the need to care, protect her is natural. and that too, attracted me as well.

right now, im at the grey region where i should just follow my instinct to care and share or be plain realistic about the timing mismatch. i know im capable of being a gd partner, just nt too sure if i shd commit myself to convince now. i wonder why, but the eagerness to prove a pt is not as intense as a yr ago, perhaps its i havent found the xfactor yet. does age really matters, in my honest opinion, yes it does, significantly.

my mind has been thru a mini whirlpool these couple of days, the jigsaw pieces are unveiling, still waiting for the obvious hints and trademarks before any decision. viet has a decision made already, not that it matters too much to me, just trying to find a purpose in going against or for that decision. perhaps time is the best judge for everything, like hw it is being use to buffer pain, dismay, agony and torment, that too can also fade happiness, joy and ecstacy. for now, i gonna use time too, to reveal and uncover more of each other.

tiredness is setting in.

perhaps grey is indeed the best color, now.

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